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mYSelF : Hey my name is Hidayat aka Noel..currently studying in Nanyang Poly taking Engineering Informatics.. To those of you joining Poly,DO NOT EVER take tis course as one of your choices..currently in the NYP Silat Team..
PeRSonALitY : Likes to joke even though not funny, caring, outgoing..romantic(really), friendly but shy, active, trustworthy and some sort of adventurous..
HoBBiEs : Playing soccer, comp games, surf net and listening to music

PROMOTION!!
Monday, March 7, 2005

Weeeeeeee~~~ I played bowling on Saturday. But no weeeeee~~ because I lost to her. Never mind. There is always a word called "revenge". Just you wait and see. On that day, the waiting list was so long. We needed to wait for at least 10 places before we could get a lane to play. Want to know the reason why?? I'm sure you people will put on a huge smile after reading this. Bowling at Marina Square is only ONE DOLLAR PER GAME. I repeat. BOWLING AT MARINA SQUARE IS ONLY ONE DOLLAR PER GAME. That is equivalent to buying an ice cream. That is equivalent to calling someone ten times(but using payphone arhh). But it ends on 31st march so don't dilly-dally okayz. You cannot get a bowling game that cheap anywhere else. And once again I'm promoting another outlet about their promotions. Wow. I'm getting better and better at these things. *winks*

Well, this part that I'm about to type is basically about my friends.
Mardia : Hey..take good care of yourself and please go and visit the doctor if its getting worse. And don be too troubled aitez??
Azlina : Stay strong girl..I admire your courage and bravery in putting up and solving your problems. Each one has their own ups and downs. Don't be distracted too much and think about your studies alright??
Shahrul : Try and talk things out okayz. I didn't know you have your problems too. Whatever it is, solve it as soon as possible okayz??
Muhaimin : Hey..If you wanna quit, don take too long. Try to do it as soon as possible. If you take too long, you will never stop. Trust me.

Sometimes things have to be settled face to face.

Hidanilson Outzz..

Hidanilson never walks alone @ 02:22 p.m.

I have only got two words..
Friday, March 4, 2005

Aftert being AWOL for 5 days, I have only 2 words to describe what I am going through.
DEAD MEAT.
I have like 4 assignments to complete within the next 3 weeks. And it is not any simple assignments. All of them require lots and lots of sweat and time on it. Not only there are assignments, there are also some tests in between those deadlines. And for one of the assignments, one group have to hand up a bloody 50 page report. I don't know why in the heck do these lecturers wanna read like a 50 page report? Is one of their hobbies reading or what? Don't they need the time to eat, feed their families/pets, to relax or whatever?? Why must they waste our time??
AAAAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
Somebody please help me out here.

With all these in mind, I can't concentrate what I love to do most. I don't even know whether I can keep up with today's training later. Each time I spar, I will have injuries. If it is not injuries, its headache here and there and everywhere. The injuries are not serious though. It is just some bruises around some parts of my limbs. Somehow, I don't feel like going for training at all this week. I feel tired, restless, lethargic. No words can describe how I am feeling now but as usual, I can still cope with all of this because there are still some joys in my life. And being as determined as I am, I am not going to give in just like that.

Sometimes I just can't understand what is going through the mind of these lecturers.

Hidanilson Outzz..

Hidanilson never walks alone @ 02:17 p.m.

plans went haywire..
Sunday, February 27, 2005

Its been 3 days since I last updated. My common tests are done and over with. That is a good sign. The bad thing is there are still the semestral exams coming up and more projects to come. Ok screw all of those. Lets see what I've been up to the last few days.

Friday :
Nothing much happened. Reached school at around 10 plus in the morning, went for prayers with some of my mates and then just waited for silat training. The training was very useful because it concentrated more on our techniques. All went our separate ways after that. Thats about it.

Saturday :
Started off by forgotting to bring my passport on my way to silat training. Silat training was tougher than any of the previous Saturday's training but I was very pleased to see most of the pesilats withstand their mental strength. But there were fewer pesilats than usual. After training, I missed the committee meeting which I am still blank as to what the meeting is all about. I met Fana for just a couple of minutes before proceeding to Johor with Sri as she is staying in Johor. Therefore, I've got company. Thanks Sri. And also meeting Fana for a while is enough for me just in case something happens to me while I'm on my way there. Anyway, I bumped into my aunties who were also going to Johor for my brother's "cukur rambut"("hair-shaving"). So I took a lift from them. It was a blessing in disguise to have met them because if I had taken the bus, anything could happen to me. After everything finished, it was already quite late. I thought of heading to Singapore myself but my dad restricted me.

Sunday :
I keep waking up every 2 hours of sleep. And it took me a while before I could get to sleep back. I couldn't wait to reach S'pore as soon as possible because I have plans for today but the plans must wait for another year to come. Anyway Ida, I'm really very sorry I couldn't get any guys for the jemputan thing. And sorry for my bro's clothings because I pleaded him for help when he already had other plans for the day. I am truly very sorry.
Well, today is also Shahrul's birthday. HAPPY 23RD BIRTHDAY TO YOU SHAHRUL. Some of us planned to go out today but it didn't happen too because I reached S'pore too late to make any plans. Sorry for that too. Well, enjoy your birthday while it lasts and have a wonderful 23rd year ahead of you.

Sometimes things just do not go our way.

Hidanilson Outzzz...

Hidanilson never walks alone @ 06:47 p.m.

Thursday, February 24, 2005

I've read quite a few blogs these days and most of them have expressed their feelings. Feelings of anger. Feelings of frustration. Feelings of happiness. Phobiatic feelings. That is just naming some of them. Are those signs that I should actually let my feelings out too? People don't seem to know who I am exactly. I don't want to brag about it but most of my friends regards me as responsible, caring, nice, generous and so on. But do they know the inner part of me? Of who I really am? I doubt so. Some let out words that hurt me but I don't show it to them. Some thought I am petty but actually I am not. I make those petty faces for fun. For that so-called entertainment that can enlighten everyone. But if others think that it sucks big time, then I'll stop doing that again.

Why do people think I'm joking when I'm serious? Why do people like to embarrass me in front of others when I did nothing wrong to them? Why do people not appreciate my candidness? I always try to be funny here and there. I understand that some don't appreciate jokes that are not funny but please, I hate it when people laugh sarcastically and put up a face that is as good as hurting their loved ones. Its okay if you don't get what I mean. You can ask me personally on this. At least that person who is cracking a joke made an effort to some sort of lift people's spirits up. Some people have split personalities and we don't know whether they are sensitive or not. Last but not least, please be understanding.

Seeing is believing but is part of believing, seeing?

Hidanilson Outzzz...

Hidanilson never walks alone @ 08:24 a.m.

2 down..2 to go..
Tuesday, February 22, 2005

Two tests have gone and two more to go. From what I can foresee, I think I can JUST pass these two papers. It wasn't that difficult and it wasn't that easy too. It was neutral. Never mind about those two tests. Must work harde on the other two although I don't know what I'm trying to do now since I'm updating my blog. Basically for the past 2 days I was busy studying. Hence, the reason for not updating yesterday. Sometimes I wonder whether I'm studying for real or not because I have a lot of breaks while studying. Study for 30 minutes, break for one hour and subsequently the cycle goes on and on. Khekhekhekhekhe.

Just now after my test, I slacked most of the day. Study only for a while. Wait a minute,come to think of it, did I study at all? Wakakakakaka. Of course lah I did study a little bit. But most of the time I spent my time playing taiti or taitee or watever the spelling is. Just sat in the club room, listening to the music while studying, while playing taiti and while writing notes. Now I know the reason why they teach us multitasking in one of my modules. Khekhekhekhe.

After all the hanging out in the club room, Dan, Shasha, Mimin, A'az, Mardia, Azrie and me went to Marina Square because Dan actually wanted to go and buy his shin guards but in the end bought nothing. Then comes the best part. Where do we go next? They actually wanted to eat at some cheap place but after much thinking, we ended up in Cavana. Danial bought for Mardia Laksa althought she insisted on not eating anything. So sweet of Danial. Khekhekhekhekhe. We made our way back home after that. At least I'm trying my best not to think too much about my upcoming tests.

Sometimes we get blamed for something that we didn't do.

I've set up a quiz for you guys...enjoy...

I made a Quiz for you! Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard!

Hidanilson Outzzz...

Hidanilson never walks alone @ 11:37 p.m.

Why do people smoke??
Sunday, February 20, 2005

I have some issues here. I just don't understand the reason people smoke. Its not that I have something against smokers because I don't. But when do they actually start? Why do they start smoking in the first place? When did it happen? Was it because of influence or was it because they just felt that it was worth the try? These are the questions that arise whenever I think of the word "smoke" or when I witness people smoking. Seriously, I cannot stand the smell of cigarettes. I cannot breathe properly when people around me smoke. I would instantly turn my head away and walk as fast as possible.

I have a lot of friends who smoke and I really want to advice them in the best manner and as modest as possible but I'm afraid that they will take it to heart. There was once this occasion when my friend offered me a ciggarette. I declined poltely but he insisted on me to take a puff. So I took his cigarette and he was smiling widely, trying to hint that he succeeded in trying to make his friend to smoke. But hell no! That is not going to happen. I threw his cigarette away and his face turned into anger and aske me promptly why I did that? I just replied "Its for your own good." Until now, he speaks to me like an enemy. Its a fear that I'm trying to overcome. I just want them to live healthily because I do treasure my friends.

One more thing is cigarettes are very expensive nowadays. Sometimes they complain and whine that they have insufficient amount of money. Come to think of it, they are facing that problem bacause they buy like 2 packs of cigarettes a day? And that costs about or less. Some people would rather smoke than eat when they should have known better which one is a wiser choice. Come on people. We are adults and we know how to differentiate between right and wrong. Think of your health. I am not writing this entry to piss people off. Nor am I writing this entry to force those who smoke to quit smoking. This is the best I can do to reach out to my friends who are smokers out there. Please do not mistook me.

Sometimes organising time is such an uphill task to do.

Hidanilson Outzzz...

Hidanilson never walks alone @ 10:04 p.m.

What a couple of days...
Saturday, February 19, 2005

Well, yesterday I started off with a blur look on my face. Went into class and tried hard to concentrate during the lab lesson and I did concentrate. 10 points for me. Yeay! Then went for semestral project and oh my GOD!! This module cum lesson cum practical, whatever you want to call it, is really keeping me very worried. Why is my project based on programming?? AAARRRGGGHHH!! After the lesson, went for Friday prayers and skipped the good for nothing lecture and went to hang out at my 2nd home instead; the club room. To Mardia: Sub and me didn't just go anywhere. We went to do our lab assignment lah. Khekhekhekhe. After Sub went for his lecture, I fell asleep in the E-learning lab. I guessed my eyes were damn groggy and tired. Went back to club room and I didn't train. I was in the club room studying with Shasha and A'az while playing taiti. I hope Abg Nana is not reading this.*crossing fingers*. But I have evidence okay.

Today was whack! Everything I did today was enjoyable. Trained at East Coast. Was supposed to meet at 8am at Macdonalds. Well, we did it on purpose because we were planning to start training at 9.30am all this while but if we told all of you to meet at 9, you guys will come at 10 right?? Stop looking around. I'm talking to those who turned up for the training.*winks*. Well, after that some of us went to swim in the sea while others went home. Soon after that, we took a shower and Shasha, me, Fizza and Bahari went to the JJC carnival thing. Mimin and A'az were supposed to tag along but A'az was hungry so Mimin accompanied her to eat first. Sorry A'az but I already promised Fana the time to meet. Thanks Mimin for accompanying her. You are such a gentleman.

Well, it was the first time I went for the JJC carnival so I didn't know what to expect. Reached there and met Fana's two sistas(Idza and Faidah) for the first time. Luckily I escaped their questions although I was well prepared for it.*hint hint to Fana*. Must buy coupons before we could buy anything down there. The place was infested with lots of people. Anyway, Fizza and Bahari let halfway through. We managed to spent all of our coupons on ice-cream, popcorn, otah-otah and can drinks. Mimin called and told me he wouldn't be joining us and would be waiting at Macdonalds Jurong Point instead. Met them there and then we proceeded to eat at Banquet. Mimin left halfway because something cropped up. Took some unwanted pictures while eating followed by walking around. A'az and Mardia went home first and we walked until the last pit stop. Toys 'R' Us. Then I boarded the TIBS bus with Fana to Chua Chu Kang while Shasha went home by MRT. Went home after sending her.

If you guys want to see the pics, it is under the photos link under "JJC Carnival" and "East Coast Training".

No words of wisdom today. Sorry.

Hidanilson Outz..

Hidanilson never walks alone @ 10:50 p.m.

Mixed emotions about this..
Thursday, February 17, 2005

Hi peeps. Yesterday was training day and as usual after that we went to hang out at our own headquarters, Ang Mo Kio Central. Well, I pissed quite a few people on the way so I sped up and walked in front as they were left flailing behind. So one by one, they called me and I really didn't feel the vibration. They thought I purposely didn't pick up the call because they thought I was being petty. Guys, please lah eh. I just did not want to hurt anyone else. And Nozie, I really didn't mean to shoot my mouth because I can be irritating at times. Reached home 25 minutes before 11pm.

Anyway, my stepmum came back from Johor yesterday and I got mixed feelings about this. First of all, I'm glad she's back because I don't really need to do some sort of housework anymore(eg. washing dishes, help to cook and so on). Hey but I still do my own chores ok like washing and ironing my own clothes, wash my dishes and so on. So therefore I can concentrate on studying for my common tests. Secondly, they will be at loggerheads soon again. It is just a matter of time. Therefore, I must reach home as late as possible to save my ears from vibrating at home.

Sometimes we don't realise that our words can hurt the other person.

Hidansilson Outzzz..

Hidanilson never walks alone @ 11:05 p.m.

Happy Belated Valentine's Day
Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Hello hello marshmellow. Ok that's lame. Anyway, Happy Valentine's Day to everyone out there. Hope all of you had a very great Valentine's Day. As for me, I had night class last night so even if I celebrate Valentine's Day, I won't be able to celebrate it. Well but I still had a couple of gifts from my friends and I also received a letter. Thanks Donna and Azlina for the edible gifts. Thanks Fana for the letter. It really took me by surprise. Well, I felt bad though because I didn't give them anything in return. I really appreciate what you guys gave to me. It will live in my memory forever.

Well, today I had a fun day nevertheless. I went to school at 11am to do my project stuff. Argggghhhhhh! I still have a mountain to climb to finish up my project. After that I went to Bishan for a while to retrieve the rules and regulations sheet from one of the ITE representatives for the Silat IVP this term. Went back to school and wrote some notes for my tests next week. Izyan and Bad, my classmates left at around 4.30pm so where else could I go?? Club room of course. Speaking of club room, I find it weird how sometimes these pesilats ask me. They will sms me and ask "Yayat, club room open what time?". Sometimes I giggle to myself(hey I'm not nuts ok) because the way they ask me is like the club room is some sort of a market or any other shops or libraries where they have opening and closing times. Wakakakakakakaka!

Okok back to what I did today. In the club room, Fana messaged me alot of times actually but as usual Starhub has no reception in the club room. But Starhub is still the cheapest around though. Well sorry ya to keep you waiting. After hanging out at club room, there were Azrie, Shahrul, Mardia, Azlina, Fana and me left. So we decided to proceed to Junction 8. After eating and walking around, we took a neoprint. Its been a while since I took neoprints with my friends so its a great feeling. Overall, its been a more than a happy day for me. The neoprints are up for your viewing pleasure.




Sometimes being with your loved ones, no matter whether there is a special occasion or not, just makes us forget about our stress.

Hidanilson Outzzz...

P.S. please ignore the long "Something About Me" part. Its always like that when I archive my entries. Sorry for the inconvenience.

Hidanilson never walks alone @ 11.50 p.m.